The spices of life away from home

Quiz

2008-07-27T08:27:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

CHLOE!!

2008-04-13T15:51:00.000-07:00

Name: Chloe
Breed:Smoked Blue Cream Himalayan (Dad: Silver Chinchilla, Mom: Blue Point Himalayan)
Eyes: Now: Blue, Future: Green
Character: Sweet-tempered, MANJA, Playful

So she finally here!! Wow, it has been a gruelling 24 hours so far. She's getting comfortable around the apartment and she's been a really good kitten thus far. So far, there's been no problems execept she requires MANJA when she's awake and she won't sleep alone.But she's still a kitten (8 weeks) and she sleeps pretty much 60% of the time.. but when she's awake it's constant playing, disciplining and manja-ing. She's such a big bundle of joy although she's so tiny. She's SO PRETTY, we can't get over it yet. We've got the best cat in the world!

I'll leave u guys with a video and some photos! Enjoy!

When directions change

2008-03-27T11:28:00.000-07:00

Time had passed me by so quickly. I can't believe it's almost the end of another school year. I met the love of my life when the school year began, and he's made these two semesters of school and being in Ottawa so memorable and beautiful. The sun's shining big and bright these days and everyone is a little chirpier and life in general, seems a little brighter.

Today, I had some time on my hands, so I sat back and thought about everyone that I love and terribly miss (yes, all my darlings at home)Then I thought to myself... everyone's directions are changing, yet somehow, we're all taking the turns on our own. My fab 4 darlings, we're all so far from each other, suddenly forcing us to gain independence and hang on while we embrace ourselves for the changes that come our way. My family: my parents, Tim, Nicole and probably even Marc, it never fails to make me so proud that I have the family that I do, they're all so smart and so strong in their own ways... it obviously runs in the John genes.

Then there's the boyfriend. He deserves a whole paragraph. The last six months have been nothing short of exciting, adventurous, full of love and a great abudance of FOOD. You've been my strongest support, my best friend,my confidant and my lover. Although it hasn't always been easy, you've never given up on me and on us, and you probably don't know how much that means. When I think about you and all the silly things we(you) do, it cracks me up every single time. In your words "I know a good thing when I see it". Babe, what we have is a great thing, and don't u ever forget that.

I want May to come soon, so I can start my freaking holiday! But I'll just patiently wait till April 19th to reunite with the latest addition to the family... Chloe!! Yet again, our directions are changing... I can't wait!

LOVE LOVE LOVES!!

2008-03-13T16:41:00.000-07:00

So this is the newest addition to my anything-but-mundane life. 5 more weeks before I get to see her again. 5 more weeks before my life is going to take yet another turn. I'm SO EXCITED to have her come home!!

She's a Smoked Blue Cream Himalayan Cat. She was only 3 weeks old when we first saw her... she melted me heart as well as the 3 "manly" guys with me. She's gonna melt your hearts too!

When dreams come true

2008-02-28T06:53:00.000-08:00

On Tuesday, 26th February 2008 at approximately at 8pm, I stood in awe looking at the Spice Girls live in flesh standing less than 50m away from me. In that moment everything was surreal, it almost felt as though time stopped. I was watching the SPICE GIRLS' FINAL performance EVER with the Love of my Life. I couldn't help but allow a tear(or two) of joy to trickle down my face. In that moment I was truly happy.

Their performance was amazing, I don't think I'll ever see anything like that ever again. There are no words that will do justice to their performance. However I must say that during the performance I wished my closest friends were there with me because it was such a magical 3 hours. I know if I died today, I'll be a happy woman.

Besides that, nothing much has been going on. We're apartment hunting right now for May 1st. It's been really fun to look for an apartment. At the same time, I feel so old because I'd never think that the day I look for an apartment for myself would come just yet. I'm also looking forward to the end of winter, I want the SUN!! I need to tan myself.. omg I'm like turning a weird shade of yellow. And I want to go Swimming, camping, Canada's wonderland and maybe fishing too.

Ok.. till next time! Photos from the concert!

Happy Times

2008-01-18T12:54:00.000-08:00

My updating is getting a little slack I noticed, but ok lah it's not too bad. So anyways the momentum of school is kicking in. Workload is piling, tests are coming up in the next couple of weeks, profs are not as good as last semester (esp macroecons and social context of Business... ugh) and I have TWO math courses this sem.. so I think I'm going to drop dead. I'm missing all my girls back home, it feels like it's been so long. I see Mambo pics and partying pics and FOOD...omg I really really wanna come back to see you people and makan. This Moo is like going to Japan and Clare to France.. haiya.. you all leave when I come back.. sadness man.

On a happier note, the BF's birthday just passed a few days ago.. he's an old man now.. 24 yrs old. So we went to Mount Tremblant for his birthday as well as Sophorn's.... although NO ATTENTION was given to the poor guy cos Sopheap is an attention-seeker. But i realised something... skiing is not my thing. I really suck at it and it's ackward...So if we go up again next year.. I'm going to do more sightseeing and other activities like Zip-lining, magic carpet and snow-tubing (less skill involved). It was an awesome trip.. there was 8 of us and the dynamics between everyone is SO FUNNY... in all it was an awesome trip.. I can't wait till summer comes.. cycling, camping, canada's wonderland!!.. I cannot wait!

OK.. onto the MOST exciting news of 2008 (thus far): I'M GOING TO SEE THE SPICE GIRLS LIVE IN CONCERT 26TH FEBRUARY. Ok.. Clare and my fellow Spice Girls lovers you can imagine how friggin excited I am. Like it's like a dream come true... OMG I'm so excited. We just recieved the tickets.. so now it's for real.... I'm really going to see them!!! I hope i don't faint from excitement.. cos otherwise it's like a waste of money.But yes... only a month more then I get to see them. They we not even supossed to perform in Toronto... but cos demand was so great they opened 4 shows in Toronto at the last moment and ALL 4 shows... SOLD OUT IN A DAY! I'm going to see POSH SPICE oh goodness. I'M SO EXCITED. I have the best Boyfriend in the world... there are truly no words to describe how wonderful he is to me. Grateful is an understatement as to how I feel for everything that he's done for me. I don't know what I did to ever deserve this but I'm truly grateful, happy, blessed and loved for everything that I have in my life.

Ok.. so more updates another time!

P.S :Ski trip pics are on facebook. I'll make a collage of it and put it up on my blog in a few hours.. the bf has to be around cos the pics are in his computer.

Christmas+ Welcoming 2008 Baby!!!

2008-01-03T19:58:00.000-08:00

I should have blogged a Christmas post but I was too busy having fun. Ok.. So my festivities began on the 23rd of December. Nick and Malika drove me and and the BF to Kingston. The ride was fairly interesting... but i won't elaborate. Anyways... one night in Kingston is NEVER enough. So our evening began with a delicious Christmas dinner cooked by Sopheap's parents...turkey and the whole works. It was SO good! Then we proceeded to opening presents mainly from Sophorn. I got the Stardust DVD!! It was really nice of him to do that. We pre-drank and got ready to hit club Stages. We had an AWESOME time there.. the music is mostly house mixes so it was GOOOOD. I'll put up some random pictures of the short but absolutely fun time at the house as well as at the club.

The next day, I had to get on the bus to Toronto, where i was going to spend the next couple of days with family and friends! Toronto is always fun.. there's so much to do.. so much to EAT!! I love that city. I had an awesome time with everyone. It was great that Jackie came down all the way from florida too. In all, the fun, food, company, laughs and monkeying around was memorable. At the same time, I was terribly missing the BF.. it was pretty bad :( Well for those who know, it was the first time we'd been apart for so long.... I'm a big baby.. yes yes. But in all I had an awesome Christmas.

Moving on, The highlight of the year was really the 31st. It was an awesome day with Sophorn, Chrissy and Jeff down. We were all antsy while waiting to head out and paint Club Heaven red one last time before the year ended. We had fun video taping Chrissy snore in her sleep and catching all the little funny moments that were going on in the apartment. Finally it was time to leave and we were pumped and ready to party.

The club was awesome, we had our party on.. and we were all ready to leave 2007 behind. I think, this has been the best New Years I've had in the LONGEST time. I was there with half of the people I love and my baby boy. It was a FUN FUN night. But by the end of the night, we were drained.. like lifeless almost. But it was worth it, every last second of it. I can't wait to see what 2008 has instored for me. I couldn't begin this year any more perfect. It's gonna be a great year and I know it. Till next time! Enjoy the pictures!

Special 2008 Welcome!!

2008-01-03T19:32:00.001-08:00

Hey wassup Vanessa's friends, this is a special post from Sopheap. For those who don't really know me, I'm Vanessa's man. You may have seen one of my many photos on this blog. Somebody likes to be a tourist and take tons of pics. No names of course. Nah, she's the best! Anyway, I just wanted to bring in the new year to her blogger world and wish everyone much success and happiness. Hope to meet you all soon! And I'm out.

When 2007 comes to an end.

2007-12-18T21:45:00.000-08:00

So this will be my final blog entry for 2007. The next couple of entries will mainly consist of photos and mini updates.

Memories of 2007 are bittersweet really. The year started the worst possible way imaginable, but it gradually got better.. very gradually but I've pulled through a difficult year.. in one piece too. It's funny how so much happens in one year. My life is way too dramatic for my own good. But finally things have settled down and I'm extremely relieved that things are finally looking up. Much of 2007 will be left behind (people and BAD memories)when the clock hits 0000 on 1st January 2008.

Anyhows, I'm looking forward to start the new year with a clean slate and build new memories and adventures that will carry through the next few years. It sucks that my girls aren't gonna be with me, but when u guys hit the new year 11 hours before me.. make sure u REMEMBER ME!! 2008 is going to be the best year yet and I already feel it...

OK so quick update. Went to my first EVER office Christmas party at the Westin. The food was uber yummy and Sopheap's work friends are just as eccentric as he is. So it was all very entertaining. It definitely broke the stereotype of computer geek I had in my head. In all,the party was great, I think I could get used to attending these things, well Sopheap needs to get used to it too. So it's going to be interesting. So I'm gonna leave some pictures of the party, but I've already flaunted it in Facebook but oh well. He's HOT lah what to do.

Long awaited UPDATES!!

2007-12-14T07:02:00.000-08:00

I know I have been breally bad with the updates but anyhow, the last month and a half was filled with fun, friends, and LOTS of freezing. The weather has turned for the worst. I hate the cold and everything about it. I HAVE DRY SKIN!! Anyways, there's been lots of snow. The finals are like tomorrow, Sunday and Tuesaday.. so I'm just trying to finish everything up and begin my holidays.

So this year, Christmas is going to be at Toronto, it should be fun and I CANNOT wait to eat another round of my Aunt's infamous STUFFING, ham and anything else that she is preparing. It's too bad the boy's not gonna be with me on Christmas but I'll see him SOON after. And I'm just going to say I have the BEST boyfriend in the world. He got me a new camera cos my old one was spolit!! Freaking 7.2 megapixals!!! It's our latest toy to play with right now and OMG the camara is damn cool lah. So it's photos/videoes galore for everyone!! *yay* I'm getting fatter by the day and soon none of my clothes won't fit me anymore!! But I digress. Next big thing after Christmas is NYE!! I'm ging to have my favourite Canadian people with me and we're going to countdaown at Niagara Falls. I'm really looking forward to it.

I cannot wait to start a new year, I'm ready to leave this year behind and move on. There's just so many exciting things lined up next year... OMG I CAN'T WAIT! I think that me and the boyfriend should do something extra fun every month.. sounds like a plan. Ok anyways, In January all 8 of us are hitting up the slopes of Mount Tremblant to ski (or in my case, snowball down the hill) for Sopheap and Sophorn's birthday, I cannot wait to go. I'll post pictures and vidoes up for sure over the next couple of weeks. We're also looking into going to New York in Feb because JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE is coming!!!! The tickets are not out yet, but i'm going to be on the ball and make sure I get my hands on some!OMG Madison Square Gardens some more!! I hope it's not crazily priced.

So that's about all my updates. Those that i've talked to on MSN frequently, you know the updates pretty much. So till next time. AND omg.. Ottawa has the best Sushi buffet ALL-YOU-CAN-EAT ever! sashimi inc!! Yum! This is how I get FAT!

LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Have yourselves a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Life and it's pleasures

2007-10-31T07:59:00.000-07:00

Life has been unbelievably GREAT the last few weeks. Reasons mainly consists of my boy and food. Lots and lots of food makes Vanessa very happy. The first round of mid-terms are finally over and FINALLY partying last weekend was oozing with awesomeness. We have wayyyy too much fun together, thus few partying nights are sufficient.

Some of the delectable food that I've had this month are the best that I've tried thus far here, so I'm satisfied.

**Phnom Penh (1 hour away,but totally worth it )
- Golden Chicken(spicy)
-Pad Thai(no taugeh)
-cambodian springrolls(mmmmm!)

**Yangtze(Chinatown)
-Dim Sum
-Cantonese Crab

**Imperial Palace (downtown)
-B.C Oyster steamed with black bean (OMG the oyster is so big and omg it's heavenly)

**Pho Bo Gla LA
- The PHO!!! (Viet beef noodle soup)

**The mall
Spicy salmon sushi (although it's like food court, no restaurant has been able to beat their spicy salmon sushi!)

Good food makes me FAT! *DAMNIT*

So... besides food, movies of the month are... Elizabeth and Saw 4. Although the boyfriend fell asleep during Elizabeth and laughed at the wrong parts, Elizabeth is a great movie. Cate Blanchett was phenomenal in the movie. Saw 4.. like all sequels it's almost time for the Saw series to end. They've almost milked it for all its worth. It was still good, but there's parts I don't get. If anyone watches it.. pls explain to me how Jigsaw ends up back in the room at the end of the movie. There's going to be a Saw 5 and hopefully it ends there. They need to make a new movie already. This month has a lot of good movies coming up... my top 2 MUST SEES for November are Lions for Lambs and American Gangster-*definite MUST WATCH*

Till next timee!!

Photos from Thanksgiving

2007-10-15T10:20:00.000-07:00

My legendary weekend (Thanksgiving)

2007-10-15T09:36:00.000-07:00

So my legendary weekend begins with a car accident on a Friday evening. No one was hurt, but someone had to pay a lot of money. The price of impatience. But that didn't damper the night cos Eric Prydz was in town and we were going to see him do his thing. The music was phenomenal, the energy was crazy, the vibe was awesome. In all, I don't think I've had more fun in my life. With my 2 favourite canadians with me (pheap and chrissy), it only made it better.

Saturday came fairly quickly, from having too much fun and we got ready to leave Ottawa and go back to kingston (home for all 3 of us). Most of saturday was spent resting and driving, then the 1st turkey dinner of the weekend came. Thanth cooked an awesome dinner, which tasted great! Pheap met Thanth for the first time (Thanth is the equivalent of my dad... he's great that way. ) They hit it off really well (which i still find hard to believe)and my babe even took his money at poker. Afterwhich, we all hit the club (another first in a looooong time for Thanth)and drained every last bit of energy we had. Going to bed after was the highlight of the day really.

Then came Sunday, my stress day. I was going to meet the parents. Everything went better than i thought.. and i think they like me? The pre-dinner (noodles and spring rolls).....OMG delectable. The dinner, the 2nd turkey dinner was great, the gravy, the ham, and the turkey... all great! Then we went out to play pool...i watched and gave support to the bf and is bro. I think I should learn to play pool properly... it seems stupid that i suck so badly.Then we rented Aladdin (Princess Jasmine :))watched it with his bro at home and then we all went to bed.
My bf's parents are funny, they remind me of home, just cos they're SO ASIAN. The vibe in the house (from khmer music)and the interactions between everyone, it feels like a real home and that was a great feeling.

By Monday, i think both of us were recharged and ready to go back to ottawa and cook our last turkey dinner of the weekend.So it was a slight rush back, just cos his parents decided to take a roadtrip and come up to ottawa too. By 7pm, the dinner was ready and everyone came and had a great time. Me and pheap are still the reigning scrabble champions *yay* and we just fun with good conversation, good food, great people.

So that's my weekend, and it was a well deserved one for all of us. I can't wait to have more weekends like that, minus the car accident. I can't wait till Christmas!!! I'm so excited!

Till next time... I'll post pics from the weekend up!

Paint my days a rainbow

2007-09-27T07:17:00.001-07:00

So it's been a while since my last update.Everything's quite the same. School's the same old, with a larger workload. Friends are keeping up quite well, weather's still not too bad, but it's been raining a fair bit.

So the newest addition to my not-so-exciting life, is my boy. So some quick facts.
Name:Sopheap Hok (so-p-up)
Age:23
Place of birth : Thailand, but he's cambodian.
Raised in: Kingston, Ontario, Canada.

So, it feels strange to be in a relationship all over again.At the same time, I don't quite remember ever being this happy... EVER.I wish I could describe him with words but I can't. He's something else,so special, I think I really lucked out this time.One thing's for sure, things haven't been the same ever since I met him. I realise you get so caught up with life, sometimes you forget the little things. Right now, there is no one I'd rather share the little things with.

This whirlwind of emotions scare me more than anything, but something is different this time. I think it's cos it really feels like I'm with a MAN, not a boy.I don't know what i did to deserve someone like him, but I'll be eternally grateful.

So, i know how to make springrolls from scratch.. and i even know how to make the dipping sauce. My boyfriend rocks! Cos he feeds me with home cooked asian food! *yum!

Late nights

2007-09-13T23:42:00.000-07:00

So I lay here, it's a quarter to 3am. I have to be up to differenciate an equation in 5 hours. But my body is not ready to sleep. So, I've finally decided to update my blog.The last 3 weeks have been crazy busy... meeting up with everyone, moving all my crap to a different location, partying, shopping, meeting new people, taking the bus to Jezs's apartment, walking downtown and watching random people, being extremely addicted to tv-links (thanks Nicole!!) and recently, studying.

It's great to be back the Big O is great, more to see and do. Definetely more culture and that fortunately comes with the wider variety of food choices. I love the people of Lebanon.. thanks for creating Shawarmas. I can't wait to explore the city and see everything before winter comes. I'm about halfway there cos I keep taking the wrong bus and end up sitting in the bus while it goes the longest way possible. Res life is kinda fun I guess. Lots of new people to see and meet.. very very bad food.. but it's fun overall. Being in international res is awesome.. u see people from all over the globe.. literally.

University life is fun.. I'm not too worried about exercise cos apparently the campus is super huge and to walk from one bulding to another takes a good ten minutes..so yeah.. I think it's all good. The workload is increasing exponentially but it's a good thing.. keeps me busy. Ottawa is good for concerts so I'll be looking out for a good one to attend in the near future (hopefully).

For some reason I think I've mellowed.. I haven't partied as much as I think I should? Oh well.. I think I'm getting lazy. Oh and I'm on the 15th floor of my res, which is top floor. Man the view is superrr amazing. Nice view of the city cos Im right downtown!

Ok I think I'm actually sleepy now. But I need to share my joke of the year... Moo.. thanks for being online.She cld be the face of China eh. I'm still sticking to the fact Cleo is choosing her as a joke. I won't mention names cos yeah.. I'm no Angel.. but I'm no devil either. HAHAHA(this went on for like ten mins when i saw it)Ok.. now that I've had my bowl of Bitchy, I'm ready to retreat to slumberland.

Peace out.

Pictures will be uploaded soon. My camera is kinda F***ed.

Why do all good things come to an end...

2007-08-11T11:27:00.000-07:00

So I'm pretty much at the 2 week mark. I have 2 weeks to pack my bags, do all the things I haven't done, eat all the things I haven't eaten and meet all the people I haven't met. 2 weeks seems too short.

The time back home was a blast.. more than I can imagine. I thought coming back and then leaving wld be easy... who knew it was gonna feel like the 1st time. It's the few people that will keep me coming back at least once a year. At the same time, I realised that my social circle has depleted. I didn't quite realise that time fades friendships... it's like we're strangers all over again... So I can imagine.. in 4 years the friends that I'll still have by me will probably be like 5. But it's alright.. cos sometimes you might just only need one... But the truth is people do change... and change is sometimes difficult to accept.

I need to start packing.. like really soon. i NEED to come up with my To-do list! I've been idle at home for days now. I need to get my stuff done damnit. Packing is going to suck cos I'm bad at it and it just reminds me of leaving.

My only consolation are my friends back in Kingston. They're planning outings, clubbing, dinner BBQs and preparing a room to crash in. Obviously they do not empatize with me at all for leaving home... they're more pissed at the fact I was gone all summer.I love my friends... every last one of them.. here or there. They really paint my world with colours, laughter and love.They are simply my world, my pride and joy.

Speaking of friends...
I miss you, more than I can imagine. Thanks for the memories.But because all good things come to an end....

Bittersweet

2007-07-31T10:03:00.000-07:00

So as of today, I'm no longer employed. That means that 2 months have flown. 2 damn months out of the 3 months that I'm back has flown! I have one month left to savour every moment spent with the people I love more than anything in the world. Dear God.. I'll be away for 11 months thereafter....Wow..

At the same time, I'm yearning to see the people I've learnt to love on the other side of the world. To re-live the crazy, drunk, sober,spastic times. To breathe in the nice fresh air and manja my cat.. and freeze my ass off. It's only going to be 27 days till I leave. Oh man.. I think only Jezs knows what i'm feeling.. it's like extreme excitement and at the same time... extreme sadness.

Highlights

** Drama at the Workplace
** Retro clubbing at MOS (bloody awesome)
** Cafe Del Mar- Thanks to those who put up with my drunken nonsense. Won't happen again :)
** Daily supper at Mas Ayu with Vicki dearest.
** Attica Too
** Drinking at Gorges
** Being entertained by Vicki B.

I'm free for a month.. so Zoo, Night Safari, Sentosa, Clubs, East Coast Beach, Airport, Coffee Shops and all things Singaporean... here I come! Hurray.

And as for bittersweet.. someone tell me why it seems like it's more bitter than sweet.

Long Over due!

2007-07-02T08:40:00.000-07:00

Ok so my posts have started to get more irregular. But I have valid reasons. I work 6 bloody God damned days a week. i barely have time to comb my hair.. u know what I mean. But somehow.. this stressful, hectic, tiring life appeals to me. I've been doing very well. Work is stressful but it has its perks. I really only have time for the people that I REALLY want to spend time with.. you guys know who u are. So it's a great excuse to give to those who's company I can really do without.

Higlights of the past few weeks would include:
* Clubbing at Zouk
* Chilling out at East Coast.
* Certain work incidents.
* Fabulous 4's last supper
* Dessert at Canale(heavenlicious)
* Parents leaving :(
* My various delicious feasts.
* Shane's condo!!*again pls babe?*
* Moo's in Japan:( (Tokyo bananas?!!)
* Rebonded hair.

So yeah. BUT the main highlight is WOMAD!!! We need to dig very deep into our pockets.. but at least we're digging together right??!! I'm already excited.. I hope I really get to go.. even if it's one day. I forget to carry my camera when i go out!! Argh.. ok more pics the next time.

Pearly Teo!!! Pls meet up!! Both you and your girlfriend.. I want to meet her!! and we can eat at this fabulous dessert place. better that Max Brenner!! OMG the chocolate is TO DIE FOR!

And I miss my 2 cats.(The one in canada and the one in Aussie!) Very random but I really do.

Pictures Galore

2007-06-15T08:58:00.000-07:00

My lovelies!!! With clare missing.

2007-06-10T08:15:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
--Neil Gaiman

So yeah.. I agree with the above the quote. I love Nei Gaiman.

So work still SUCKS. I'm getting too fat, it's quite disgusting. I need a foot massager! Blah. this sucks!!

Sense Field- Save Yourself
Turn out the lights.
Just say goodnight
To yourself.
May I remind you
When you find you
Are all alone's when you've
Got to be strong.
That's when they call you
In the night.
He's got your picture
In his mind.
He's got your number
On a paper
At his disposal
Anytime.

Is he really true?
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you?
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who,
Someone who,

You met in a bar.
The back of a car.
And for a moment
You felt important
But not in your heart.
'Cause my self esteem -
It's been low.
Go ahaed and count.
It's been lower than low.
I know the feeling
Of it stealing
Right out from under me.

'Cause I wanna learn -
How you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you.
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
Loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who
Someone who
Will cherish your name.

'Cause I wanna learn.
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
And loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who,
Someone who'll
Cherish your name...
Cherish your name...

This is a useless post. But this song seems appropriate for the quote above.

Too DAMN Busy

2007-06-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't updated since like 4637382063738392 years ago. So.. I've been busy working like a fool. I think I'll be quitting soon. Standing for 10 hours is really not my thing. I think it's a stupid job and I'll never do sales again. I have a new found respect for my dad.. sales is too tough for me.

So I have done many many things I set out to accomplish. Well I've eaten most things I have been craving for since like 8 months ago! Watched Shrek 3 and Pirates *yay*. I WANT TO WATCH HAIRSPRAY WHEN IT OPENS!!! I just need to quit my job and find a simpler one.. so the things to do list is....
** Go sentosa
** Go JB
** Eat Sushi
** Meet up with everyone I haven't seen.
** Go for Mambo night
** SHISHA!!
** Eat more
** Shop more
** Get a new job
** Get a new handphone
** Get a new iPod
** Lose some weight!

So many things to do so little time!!!!

HOME SWEET HOME

2007-05-19T23:34:00.000-07:00

Man it feels so good to be back on land, in my homeland. Greeted by familiar faces, sights and sounds feels amazing. It's still under 48 hours since I've been home.. and I've ate so much!! The food is delectable... heavenly.. Mmmm.

Surprising Farna yesterday was really fun.. coming back to see her expression was worth it. The food we ordered... Tom yum Soup, Cereal prawns, Hot-plate beancurd, Sambal Kang kong, Mee Goreng, Pandan Chicken. Between 4 girls, that's a lot of food. But it was like I mentioned, HEAVENLY. Then a few hrs later, another round of Scrumptious Dinner with the family.

So apparently, Singapore has changed quite a bit. Everything in town seems to be under renovation of some sort.. shops have improved (i think).. it's quite exciting really. It feels strange to be surrounded by a million people wherever you are, but I'm getting used to it. But the HEAT!!! argh... its makng me sticky and my hair frizzy, and my face oily!!! It is TOO HOT!!!

So many more people to meet and catch up with!! Clare and Pearly faster come come!!! Farna don't leave!!! Shane faster recover!!! I can't wait to go to sentosa, to swim, sun and PLAY VOLLEYBALL!!!! People!! Faster plan!!!

There is indeed no place in the world like home! Yay going out with my MOO MOO darling and hopefully that ess later on! Blog later!!

My Nuy BABY!! plus Gucci

2007-05-10T13:35:00.000-07:00

I HAVE to write this post cos I'm in Toronto terribly missing my CAT and knowing that it's not behaving like its normal self doesn't help!!

I am missing my cat Nuy so much and i just need some outlet to rant my frustrations so this is what blogger is for!

I know this is an utter rubbish post but I need to get it out of my system!

The first day I moved in to the house, the cat absolutely terrified me. That's cos I hate cats period. But about a week or 2 in, I realised that cats are pretty loving animals. The have a whole attitude of their own but still loving. About a month in living in the house, I started hearing sounds of scratching on my door around after midnight. It was NUY, the cat. So open the door and it jumps on my bed and falls asleep.... all night with me! And then I was trapped... forever... HE IS THE MOST ADORABLE THING IN THE WORLD! So, like anything I love, I spoilt it... spoilt it so terribly.

The real test of its affection was when I fell really ill. For three days, he never left my bed. Well.. except to eat, shit or pee. The real owner of Nuy, my other roommate Fernando said the cat loves me, for real. For 3 days and nights it snuggled up next to me and it was so loving and every time i coughed or sneezed or was shivering, he came close to me and made a soft meow. He is the CUTEST cat in the world. I miss him so so so so SO SO MUCH! Knowing that he's not acting himself and is being sad and withdrawn is NOT helping at all.

I'll put some pics of him.. sigh.. I miss him!

Gucci is the little kitty that was bought about a month ago. She's the most adorable spoilt brat in the world. I'm gonna miss her high pitched whining.

Last few days in gd ol' K-town

2007-05-02T12:06:00.000-07:00

Another Goodbye...

2007-04-25T20:20:00.000-07:00

So, seven months of independence, tears, happiness,frustrations, crazy times,drunk times, sober times, fun times, great friends, not-so-great friends and it's all over. It seems like yesterday I was wishing I was back home where I knew I belonged and was (and still is) loved by many. Now this place has become my home, where I know I belong and more importantly loved by the few who really matter to me. It saddens me to begin the packing process all over again and leave the environment I had sought for laughter, love, encouragement and pure fun.

People I'll dearly miss:
1. Chrissy- My housemate, classmate, partner-in-crime, my closest friend.
2. Thanth- Chrissy's bf, his weirdness, and grumpy face
3. Fernando- Other housemate, his stories, kindness and his laughter.
4. Dave- My strong support, poker coach, the one I cld talk to all night long.
5. Isaac- The creeper, who's actually a great friendly guy.
6. Kelvin- The cutest lil thing.

Well, there's gonna be more people, but these are the pple I actually will miss, especially Chrissy, I've never been around anyone other than my family 24/7 and it makes me sad to know, she's not going to be there after this week. I'm gonna put some pictures in from some of the latest "Vanessa's farewell parties".

Sick Easter Break

2007-04-10T16:02:00.000-07:00

My Easter long weekend was sick, but unfortunately I was sick too. Partying all around Kingston began on Thursday night. Everyone was home, the clubs were packed.. lineups were like a kilometer long everywhere. It was pretty nuts. There were parties in the line-ups. Interesting stuff.

Saturday was pure hell, waking up to a sandpaper throat, plus having to be extremely cheerful and productive cos it's Fern's bday(my roomie) party. It was exetremely tiring to entertain the guests, drink with them (ok that wasn't too hard), and talking cock. Yes, where there are lots of Asians, there is lots of talking cock. By the time it was late, my throat was burning, and so were my eyes and the rest of my body. Since then, its been downhill, been SICK SICK SICK!!! With absolutely no MANJA!!! Can u believe that??!!

My throat is still sore, and it feels so gross! ok la.. I'm going to watch TV now. Got American Idol soon.

2007-04-06T15:17:00.000-07:00

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Randomity

2007-04-05T12:59:00.000-07:00

I know I've been ranting on about how Spring's almost here.. and how I can't wait to quit wearing snow boots and feeling cold and wearing long sleeve shirts.. yeah got the point right. Guess what I saw after I woke up and took a nice long strech?! SNOW.. FREAKING SNOW. There isn't supossed to be snow in Spring!! Argh.. so yeah.. it was a crappy morning. But it's just warming up now, so that's good.

Long Easter weekend!! *yay*. I wonder if Singapore has Easter Monday.. cos we DON'T! But well, school's alomost doneeee (I know I've said it a thousand times.)

It's Fern's birthday this weekend, he's turning 29.. my OLD roomie. He's a lil depressed, hopefully he'll cheer up by Saturday, we'll have a nice party for him.

I NEED A JOB desperately. I'm going to be screwed if i don't have one. Argh.

I need to do accounting now. Will blog again.

oh.. and The Secret... It didn't change my life.. sorry.

Signature

2007-04-01T17:13:00.000-07:00

Hello to all, this entry is only in cos someone downstairs farted and I can't go down to get dinner. Besides that, April's here!!! School ends in like 3 weeks... but it's gonna get really busy. Its already really busy, it's just that you know.. me and last minute work.. yeah.. still the same bad habit.

I'm so lazy; Eragon is a gd movie to watch with like a 7-12 yr old who likes dragons. I'm currently ADDICTED to Kenneth Cole's "Signature". It's the smell and the boy who's wearing the smell... MMMMMMM! I'm craving Baskin' Robbin's Chocolate Ribbon. The song She's like the Wind by Lumidee feat Tony something is currently on replay. Get it people... LOVEEE the song.

I'm getting tired now. But I sall not sleep cos my pirate friends have the move "The Secret" so I'm gonna have to check out what the damn hype is all about.

Will def blog on "The Secret" when im done watching it.

I reck Kenneth Cole... I smell SEXY.

Melting, melting,melting!!

2007-03-24T07:16:00.000-07:00

THE SNOW IS MELTING!! It's making the entire city muddy and dirty tho. But the point is winter is OVER!! It's supposed to be April showers bring May flowers, but Mr. Global warming decided to go a month early. The sun is out shining and bright, and doesn't stop till like 730pm which is friggin awesome, considering a month ago, it gets dark at like 415pm.

So. That also means 4 more weeks of school!!! How SUPERFANTABULAS is that. Sorry pple I tried to get the green light to come home in May, but the parents had strict a "NO" about that. I feel the love, really. So I'm going to be handing out resumes soon, to find a summer job either in here or Toronto. I think Toronto wld be better, just cos I'm really sick of Kingston. I salute pple who have lived here all their life.

I just wanna go home... people!! Please start restaurant/hawker centre/party planning!!! Please drop ure bfs for a week and let me hog u guys!! Clare farna and ess, I'm talking to you. Moo, dun worry, sushi and you staying over is at the top half of the list..

I'm almost close to going home... so excited!!!!

By the way, these following lines DON'T WORK.

Are you from Tennessee? Cos you're the only 10 I see.
Is your dad a baker? Cos he made some nice buns.(I took offence)

I swear to God this scumball went on all night, but I only seem to remember these 2 for now. Just cos he drives a yellow hummer... boys.. they're dumb.

Life is good.

2007-03-11T16:38:00.000-07:00

I'm getting quite bad at this updating thing now.. haha. So the last week or so have been crazy busy!! Presentations and written reports are driving me nuts, causing friggin stress, and making me party harder on the weekends.. heh.

Nothing much has really been going on with me at least. The weather's breaking.. and I can swear.. I almost smell SPRING!! The horrid cold weather is going away, rain's falling.. weather is climbing above O degrees... We've just un-winterized the time.. It's great. We had another bbq today for lunch, with Nguyen this time... food was great.. company was great. Life is good.

But as always, the drama never ends. Disturbing news from back home, but everything's kinda alright. Babe.. pls learn frm this yea. REALLY REALLY learn. Still love u long time!

So, yeah.. this are just kinda going smooth for me right now, grades are good, Uni is a definite guarantee, I'm not too worried about anything. The boy scene is actually kinda nice too *smiles*. I see fun times ahead.... and a lil more closer to going HOME!!

Life is great, I'm really happy. My darlings back home are happy too I think.. so it's all good!

I'm putting some pictures up... they are of a concert by Thornley, and the rest are just some random weekend partying pics.

Time pass me by

2007-03-01T20:50:00.000-08:00

So I've been terribly busy with the mid-terms and right after that i was terribly busy having fun during my march break. It's almost coming to an end now. But it has been a good one, with shopping, skiing, skating, yummilicious food all in my favourite city Toronto. So I'll be heading home to Kingston tomorrow. Bad weather has plagued the entire eastern Ontario. As I type this post, ice pellets are fallling from the sky. It's also got me wondering if my bus will still be as scheduled to return to Kingston. I'm missing my roomies and the Cat. We have company coming over too, yes, our dearest Isaac Trumbley and his wifey. With that we'll enjoy the evening with wine, poker, Pan's Labyrinth and Isaac's wits. I can't wait!

So I need a job. I'll be desperately looking for one once this break is over. I need to occupy my free time, cos right now: free time= playing with the cat= getting attached to the cat= want to steal the cat= problem -> cat is not mine. I want my own cat! That and some extra money would be nice. So that I can fund my shoppoholic tendencies. I wanna buy a new pair of knee high leather boots. But i want to wear it when i go home. How? I think it'd be too hot. So that means i sld get new sunglasses! There problem solved.

Im gonna return to watch the damned korean drama now. Will update again.

Randomness

2007-02-17T10:21:00.001-08:00

This whole week flew by so fast, and half of my mid-terms are done!!! 7 days to March break; 5 days of skating, sking, tobagaining, clubbing, asian food- Dim Sum, shopping and gd company!! Toronto for the break is going to be great.

2 more papers and then its OVERRR!! The end of feb is coming too, so it means I'm one more month closer to coming home!! I'm already looking forward to it. It's still early tho.. heh.

There's nothing too interesting going on. I'll post some pics up in this entry, they are of Nuy, the cat and some photos from last night's partying. Please notice how much damn weight i've gained! These damn overfeed me!

2007-02-17T10:21:00.000-08:00

A Tribute to Isaac Tumbley

2007-02-13T16:11:00.000-08:00

Ok, for everyone back home, this post is dedicated to a college mate of mine, Isaac Trumbley. I'm doing this cos he's extremely offended I haven't mentioned him in any of my posts.

So, I noticed this tall man with a short beard and goatee, wearing this back hat(not a cap, buttoned down shirt, tie, sneakers and a long black coat. Very striking amongst the mass of college kids. My first impression was that he seemed armish or something like that. Then, he randomly mentioned a computer job, so that obviously gave it away. He was a computer geek. I would think no one really could understand Isaac's persona, because everyone just made assumptions about the type of person he was.

All that started to change when I realised we take the same bus from school. That's when we first started talking. One striking conversation we had was about his wife. (He's been married since 18, i think he's 24 this year)So he says something like "I tricked her into marrying me. She didn't wear glasses, so she couldn't really see me." That gave me a whole different impression, now, he's just creepy. As more bus rides occured, he just became creepier. I was almost afraid of him.

But, in class, Isaac began to piss of a certain bitch,Holly. That when I began to think, yeah, I like this guy. Just as I was starting to think he's cool, he calls me a "frigid bitch" in front of the whole class. So yeah.. I really don't know.

HAHA.
Ok.. Isaac is the coolest Kingstonian that walks Kingston grounds. He's smart, funny and a ton of fun to talk to. His sense of style, suits him perfectly, except maybe u should wear different shoes. And NO Isaac, I don't think I'm smarter that you.. despite what you say. And on a final note, Let's go skating!

QUIZZES

2007-02-11T14:54:00.000-08:00

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You value loyalty highly.
You're completely devoted to your friends and family.
Even if they totally screw up, you're still there for them.
Just make sure they're equally loyal to you!

Honesty:

You don't really value honesty.
You do value getting your way, no matter what.
And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.
A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!)

Generosity:

You value generosity a fair amount.
You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.
Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.
But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"!

Humility:

You value humility highly.
You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are.
And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better.
You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance highly.
Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...
You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.
You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

The Five Factor Values Test

Scorpio - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're red hot passion makes anyone you date feel extremely wanted

Loyalty, to the point of doing anything to protect your lover

You are mysterious and charismatic - and you easily draw people in

Your negative traits:

You tend to be paranoid and think that the worst is going on with your lover

You turn cold and mean at the first sign of conflict in relationship

You sometimes become obsessed with dates - so much so that you develop jealousy early on

Your ideal partner:

Someone who will take the time to win you over. Not an easy task!

Is able to keep up with your carnal appetite... lots of stamina needed.

Reassures you of their love and loyalty on a daily basis.

Your dating style:

Intense. You prefer to stay in with take out and conversation - so that no one else is distracting you and your date.

Your seduction style:

Hot. New partners have trouble believing that your libido is for real.

You have incredible sexual intuition - you always know what your lover craves

A bit bossy. You know what you want, and you certainly aren't afraid to ask for it.

Tips for the future:

Don't be so secretive with your love - they want you the way you are

Let go of your jealousy. Your partner has chosen *you*

Spend more time alone, doing things you love. It will help you be less obsessive.

Best color to attract mate: Dark red

Best day for a date: Tuesday

What's Your Love Profile?

Perfect.

Late update!

2007-02-11T14:25:00.000-08:00

So, I've been extremely lazy to blog these few days cos I'm having wayy to much fun here! Ok, I'll start with school. School's been pretty alright, not too stressful cos our schedule's really good, so that has really helped a lot. There's a lot going on with the people at school but I'm just really too tired with the "That bitch stole my boyfriend" gossip, so I do other things like stare out of the cafeteria window and look at the snow falling down, or look out for cute boys.

Moving in with my friend Crissy, is probably one of the best decisions I've made. I keep her company and make her laugh when we're sober, and she makes me laugh when she's high, and we both teach Fernando, my other roomie how to read. In turn, he makes us cocktails, so who needs to go clubbing now, when we have an in- house bartender. That's how my weekends have been the last couple of weeks, at home drinking while loud house music is blasting from the huge speakers.

I love where I live cos, downtown is a 20 min walk away, so instead of getting drunk at the club last night, Chrissy and I, walked downtown and watched all the drunk people stumble out of the clubs. It was a lot of fun to watch drunks, and funnier when u know them! Before that, we went skating for a whole 30 mins until our feet hurt like a bitch, so we decided to stop. Then a couple hrs later, we went back, to go tobagaining, we used a magic carpet instead cos it's a lot faster. So tobagaining is when u sit on a plastic sheet or box and go down a hill, which is covered in snow. We spent a good 2 hrs flying down the hill till we were almost frozen, then we went home.

So besides playing in the snow, which is knee-deep in the backyard, and working on our fort, most days have been spent watching dvds, cooking, making cocktails, manja-ing the cat and chilling at home or going over to Troy's for drinks.

So that's about it for now.. oh and to ALL, watch APOCALYPTO!!! Best movie I've seen this year. I'm not sure about Smokin' Aces, I'll be catching that on Tuesday, so i'll update!

Who needs a man when you have a cat?

2007-02-11T14:11:00.000-08:00

So here's the scoop on the new favourite thing in my life. This little buddy of mine is called Nuy(pronounced Nu-yi). Its not really my cat, its my roomie Fernando's cat, but I think he likes me better, cos I'm female and he's male. He misses a woman's touch, see. I think he's just using me for my blanket, cos ever since I've been here he's been napping on my blanket. But beneath is adorable face, lies a little tiger, I've been scratched so many times now. He's a cool cat and I love him! So I guess I don't hate cats anymore, because apprently, everyone here has a freakin cat, so you just kinda get used to them. I even want to get one of my own, but I don't think Nuy will like it too much, so I'll just stick to Nuy for now!

photossss!!!

2007-02-03T09:53:00.000-08:00

EXCITEMENTS, frustrations, more excitements!!!!

2007-01-25T18:24:00.000-08:00

I know it's been a while since my last update.. the week has practically flown by so quickly I can't believe it's thursday already! So the week's been super exciting with school and all, the work is piling and it's been busy. In between homework, meetings and going to school, I've started moving my stuff. For those who don't know, I'm moving out of my cousin's into my friend's house which is IN town and close to school, and the fact that she is in every single of my classes is a God given blessing! I'm extremely excited to move because my current living situation is not working out at all. Walking to catch a freakin bus when its freakin -30 degrees outside is far from what you can imagine. So being able to get a ride home and back, being near the skating rink, and this hill to go turbarganing, the gym to use the sauna and 5 mins away from downtown makes it A LOT better.

Despite the crazy schedule, I managed to catch Alpha Dog on wed, its the new Justin Timeberlake movie. I recommend it to anyone who wants to watch it. I loved the movie cos it was the 1st movie of 2007 to make me bawl my eyes out. Terribly embarassing, but I couldn't help it. That's the only going out i have done all week so yea. It's been too cold to do anything much. So everyone pretty much indoors.

The last few days have been very evenful. Lots of different interesting things happened over the last couple of days. I also wrote out a significantly important email to the someone who used to be very special. That was probably the turning point of the week because, after that, my whole week turned around and so did my mood and my temper. I think I'm back to my normal self again which feels great. Things are finally going my way and I'm just taking things in stride now. I think everything, for once, is going to be alright :) When my room is kinda furnished i'll post pictures up!

Music:Set me free- Paul Oakenfold

The roughest yet..

2007-01-17T21:28:00.000-08:00

So far, the week has pretty much been the shittiest week in my life, and it's only Thursday. I'm pretty sure that it's not gonna get worse. I can't wait for the weekend to sit back and relax little bit. Might take a bubble bath while I'm at it too.

It's been really weird. I think if I stayed off the computer and hung out, my week wld have been much better. Things are going really well here, except for the God-forsakened weather now, but well, there is lots of snow, and snow is very fun. School's pretty much the same, although the assignments will be piling soon. The peeps are doing their own thing,I'm gaining some stability and having a life outside perpetual visits to the bar. I'll be moving in with Chrissy soon and I'm looking forward to that. So everything here has been surprisingly smooth-sailing and very pleasant. Then, this is totally offset when i turn on the com to see what's going on back home. My goodness, chaos is probably an understatement. Absolute havoc! It's been terribly upsetting over the last few days to hear what's been going on. Honestly, I don't even know what to do or say anymore. I'm just going to let time heal all wounds. Hopefully, when I get home things will be better.

And then we move on to briefly talk about this word that has been much associated with me over the last couple of months/weeks/days. It is CHANGE. So maybe it seems like I've changed, but I know myself. I haven't changed one bit. If only anyone can view things in my point of view will they understand. I'm still me. Jezsica has been here with me. She's known me from back home and she knows me now. She'll say I've been dumb, but she's also said, I haven't changed. It's complicated to explain and I'm not going to. I don't wish to make it seem like i'm making excuses for myself. A lot of why "change" is associated with me is because most info was second-hand, from a particular blabber mouth whose intentions I'm sure, was anything but noble, decided to screw things up. I know me, and I haven't changed. Sure, some of my perspectives have changed, opinions on certain things, but I'm in a totally different society, you just learn to see somethings in a different light. Choosing to not learn and adapt is plain ignorance, so I won't beat myself up for having a different take on things.

Me being here, to everything that has happened and is happening, happens for a reason. I'm not saying that I've done the greatest job in settling down, but God knows I've tried. Being able to only live from day to day has been extremely tough, but i realised it's the best way for me right now. It keeps everything in control and it allows for damage control. At the end of the day, I still look at my mistakes and realise that I clould have done things differently. At the same time, I cannot afford to sit and wallow in everything that goes wrong. I have no doubt that I'll make it out alive and in one piece, with a great experience to tell. So I hope that these certain people will see that, because this is what i want and I'm ready to fight with everything that's in me.

I love u guys! Ess, Clare, Farna and Moo... The indecisive, naive,reactive,dependent,cannot make it Vanessa is still here!!

Music: Three days Grace- Pain

More updates

2007-01-14T16:35:00.000-08:00

So I haven't blogged in ages now. The first week of school just went by.. feelings about school.. a little mixed. The class is still really clique-ish because no one really wants to make friends cos in 4 mths we'll be switching again. That makes forming grps for grp presentations really annoying.. but I'll deal. The week kinda flew by real quick.. like i said.. my schedule doesn't wear me out on any particular day which gives me time to have a life.. or something like it! This semester has a whole lot of things going on including; a dinner for marketing students, a fieldtrip, 5 different presentations, and a ton of assignments. So that'll keep me in the books and out of trouble for a while ;)

Moving on, this week was a little messy from adjusting to the new schedule, and settling a whole buch of administration stuff. Well I guess some people were just in a "let's piss Vanessa off by being either a bitch, for one or a jackass, for another." But it was fine. One's settled, one more to go. Speaking of which, after this, I need to see if a certain someone has had the decency to pay his dues and get out of my life. An incident that probably got me thinking, that I had been such a fool in so many different ways over the last couple of years. I'm sure he feels the same way. We both kind of wasted a lot of resources which could have been channeled elsewhere, that's my opinion at least. But whatever, it's over and done with and I think I'm finally ready to close that chapter of my life, and write a new one. No I'm not writing this in anger. My one word is ungrateful. Use it any way.

On a happier note, I had an awesome weekend(or should i say Saturday evening- Sunday evening). Spent the day with Chrissy, where we covered a whole range of activities; gyming, sauna-ing,tanning(in a tanning bed!! it was a freakish experience but i'll be back for more!), got our nails done, waxed ourselves, drank with Thang and Fernanado, watched 2 rented movies and ate pizza! All for a total of $10, which was for the pizza. I love hanging out at that house, which makes me think I should just move in with them, cos it's so much more convenient. We'll be making a decision this week, I'll update! And oh man, could i ever be more UNFIT! The aches everywhere speak for itself!

Basically the summary of this week.. will blog more often! Gotta shower and get some work done and watch the new season of The Apprentice ,Los Angeles!

Music: Rockstar- Nickeback
Weather: -10, Snow!

Back In School

2007-01-08T18:44:00.000-08:00

Today was the first day back after a well-deserved break. So all of us are reshuffled from 5 classes into 4. There 's about 5 people frm my previous class who are in my new class. It's kind of a weird feeling to go back to a buch of new faces. It almost felt like the first day of school all over again. But I have the hot/joker/cool/mysterious guys in my class, so it's all good.

Haven't met all my teachers yet but my management teacher is a follow up from last sem. That creeper. My schedule's looking real good and my breaks are in sync with my buddy Dave,Which awesome so i get to see him during breaks!! The school feels different cos there's a whole bunch of new people and a whole other bunch that dropped out :( But well, I'm sure i'll catch up with them at the clubs. That's why they dropped out in the first place.

I have yet to decipher what the culture of my new class is, but I hope we have a good mix of all the types, good and bad. I think we all agree that we miss our class from last semester, cos most friendships were just forming over the 4 months and now its kinda gone. Most friends tired switching into each other's classes ie Chrissy switching into mine :) We'll see with time i guess!

Music: Kelvin's Bon Jovi's impersonation of "It's my life"

The Drama.

2007-01-06T17:01:00.000-08:00

Ok.. long time no post. Firstly, I need to make my very first public apology to my Darlings(Fab 4 and Moo... specifically.) I'm sorry u guys for doing whatever i did and saying whatever I said. It was stupid and irresponsible.. I take the blame. Thanks for reminding me once again, I still have people who care about me. You forget that sometimes when the going gets rough here. I promise, Cross my heart, no such thing will happen again, for real. I'll let u hold me to my word. This drama is wayyy too much and I dont like being faraway without having control of the situation that's happening back home. I know you guys care.. but an intervention that huge.. sld have me notified at the very least. I didn't appreciate that.. but i know it was out of concern.. so again Thank you. I'm alright now.. everything is back to normal.. so please.. take a small timeout and everything will be ok.

So, the holidays are finally coming to an end, and I cannot wait to get busy and meet up with everyone. Its been a nice 3 week break. It's been very eventful and frankly the year couldn't end any better or any worse. The new schedule's looking great.. no early mornings execpt on Fridays, but we end at 12pm.. so the weekend comes in nice and early too! So I think I'm gonna go for yoga every Tuesday. It'll be good to keep fit and relax.. i need to channel my energy elsewhere. I also think I might want to buy a cat. I'm still thinking about that one.. cos I kinda hate cats, but they are somewhat entertaining to keep. The week's been pretty much blah.. haven't done too much over the last few days except stay up and chat online or watch rented movies at home.

Movie recommendations for the week are : Little Miss Sunshine- About a family who tries to get their Beauty-queen wannabe daughter to the little Miss sunshine pagent. There's a nice mix of humour as well as a heart warming storyline, which I liked. The other movie is The Illusionist, staring Edward Norton. Absolutely entertaining to see how an illusionist uses magic to win the love of his life as well as deal with corruption in the government. I absolutely loved it.

Music: Dance Dance- FOB

Welcome 2007!!

2007-01-01T18:13:00.000-08:00

The best way to welcome the new year.. with good booze, great company and lots of LOVE! Love u guys Chrissy, Thang, Fernando, Dani, Nan!!

Happy New Year to all! Love lots!!

To My darlings back home: I MISS YOU!!

Cheers to 2007 being the best year yet!

Highlights!

2006-12-30T12:13:00.000-08:00

The past week has been so so so awesome. My uncle from home came, my huge stash of instant noodles and chilli crab came, photos and videos of the family arrived along with many other things! I was just psyched to see someone from home!

We spent a day here in Kingston and left for Toronto the next morning. This was the trip that I've anticipated since Thanksgiving. Toronto is always special Spending a good 6 days there was so awesome. I fell in love with that city 8 years ago.. and now I'm in it. So its no surprise i want to go to uni there now. So University of Toronto will be one of my choices, along with Queens and UofOttawa. Most of the time spent in Toronto was channelled towards eating the besttt Asian food ever ie. Dim Sum, Sushi and Thai, and doing some sightseeing with my uncle. Most of the time was really spent shopping, driving around to visit, and sitting at the Johnsons' to watch downloaded movies. I wanna live in Toronto, and work there and have a family there(if God willing). It's just too difficult to put in into words but I LOVE Toronto.. the lights, the vibrant energy, the nightlife, the cultural mosiac and the food!

So, the year is coming to an end now. I'm ready to leave 2006 behind and look forward to 2007.
This year has been eventful, from working at transit hotel to being shipped half way across the world. No regrets, there's gonna be more things to see and learn and do! I'm excited to bring in the new year especially since I'm going in absolutely fresh, with no strings attached to anyone or anything. I'm ready to go back to school and make new friends and kick some ass, oh and party moderately too! I'm gonna have fun.. and take more pictures and take care of ME. I'm gonna have down time wih myself more often and take it easy.

Resolutions for 2007

Get into a university of my choice.
Stay off the guy scene.
Get straight As
Spend money more wisely.
Taking it easy.
Taking more photos.
Smartening up.
Getting a good summer job.
Being a good girl.
HAVING TONS OF FUN!

So farewell 2006! Hello 2007!

More photos!!

2006-12-20T21:41:00.000-08:00

An Encounter with The Player

2006-12-20T18:16:00.000-08:00

The "player" catagory of guys seem to be the most enticing for girls who have the inclination to make their somewhat unsatisfactory life more interesting. Getting involved with the hustler type involves no emotional attachments, for the well-being of your heart, but what happens when he uses emotional lines to somewhat flirt and lure you into his "love shack"?

I've come to realise how curiosity regarding the want to experiment with this sort will get u nowhere but burned. What would you do if he says "I wish I could have the next lifetime with you" or "I'll make you so happy" or even sings "She's everything I ever wanted, everything I need..."? This, I would think is outrageous, because the whole notion of playing someone is leaving their heart and emotions out of the stupid game they play. But then the damned little thing a.k.a Naivity sets in, the you suddenly lose the logic and knowledge that was right in the front of your mind. Then, you begin the process of digging the hole that you might or might not fall into(that's how naive she can be.), of course you'll fall in!

By the time, you've come to a realisation that you've gone as far as it goes, it's too late. You open your eyes and hope for some divine miracle, that he'll fall into some emotional state which suggests that he cared or cares. Again, Naivity. The morning light brightens the room ,and the highlight of the night before, turns into regret. You pick up whatever's left of your dignity and walk out the door, while he talks about the Hockey game tonight. The lack of an acknowledgement of anything that happened drives her insane. When you think it doesn't get worse.. his parting words are "The sex was good, the chase was fun, but I can't go the extra mile." At that moment, you realize that you've been BURNED.

Music: No Heaven- DJ Champion

Fcuktabulous Weekend

2006-12-18T21:26:00.000-08:00

I'm so exhaused, I became hyper. Don't even ask me how that happens. So I got in just today around 8pm from my weekend in Ottawa. I had so much fun.. as usual.. Clubbing, boozing, shopping and sightseeing. We'll start from the top.

Friday: Was the last official day of school. So there were parties all over the different Residences. Got into a huge quarrel with the Meanie, then, headed of to get Buzzed. So the res of our (me, Dave, Steph, James, (hot)John and Jaime) was Sean's res. So the night was filled with tons of alcohol, lots and lots and lots of laughing, Chilling, gossip, doing inappropriate things and eventually dragging our drunk asses back home. It was more of a chill night more than a party night. The consequences of this night was to catch up really soon.

Saturday: Woke up with the worst headache, got ready to leave for Ottawa to see Jezsica. We headed for the mall after dropping my stuff off at the Res. Went to the mall for chinese food (it was white man's) unfortunately, but neverthe less, with lots of Chilli sauce, it wasnt too bad. Did some Christmas shopping for her friends and my cousin and his family. Then we went back to the res, and got ready to go PARTYYY! Being the cheapskates we are, we pumped ourselves with Martinis, Vodka+ apple juice as a chaser, I had my mickey of Barcadi, and couple of tequilla shots. We were pretty much good to go by 11pm. The club was great, music was awesome, the alcohol kicked in eventually. About an hr and a half later, we got hungry, so we stumbled over to Pizza Pizza and ate like 2 huge slices each. I had so much hot sauce, I began sobering up. Went back, danced and drank a bit more, got our coats and left.

Sunday: Woke up with another splitting headache. Drank a ton of coffee, and got ready to go sightseeing. We went to the parliament.. again.. but its so beautiful. Went to the mall for food and more Christmas shopping for Jez. Went to the supermarket.. bought food for dinner and headed back to res. Ate dinner in Jezs's room.. surprised her HUGE crush with his Christmas prez.. which was great! Then about 10 pple came to the room for a round of STRIP POKER. Yes, that's right, STRIP POKER. It was interesting to watch how the guys love getting naked. I was lucky that night having to only strip 3 articles of clothing for both rounds. One round was a close call for many.. with 3 articles on the table. After that , me and Pat watched Step Up.. and Channing Tatum is too HOTTT!

Monday: Slept in till abt 1pm. Got up and got ready to leave by 4.45pm. Ate the best burger you'll ever taste on the Carleton campus, Deep South. Went back up, packed the last bunch of things and left for my 2 1/2 hr bus ride back to Kingston! Reached ard 8pm.. waited for Craig in the office till 9.15pm. Did some catching up and then headed home ard 12.30am. I'm glad to be home! I'm now counting the days to head down to Toronto to see my Uncle James!!!!

Ok.. I'm actually sleepy now. Will write again tomorrow.. if I feel like it.

Let the Fun begin....

2006-12-15T13:22:00.000-08:00

I'm officially done school for the semester! I can't believe how quickly it went by! The first day of school is still fresh in my memory like it happened yesterday. The nerves, feeling alone, being extremely cautious about tripping and falling in the middle of the caf, I seem to remember it all pretty well! That's obviously history cos I have tons of friends now. But I'm just excited for the next semester now. So my first super crazy, fun night out was last nightand this is how it went.

The drinking started at home around 7pm and by 9pm I had gone thru 2 beers and 4 glasses of wine. At 9pm headed over to Chrissy's house had 4 cans of beer and 3 Yager shots, and got ready to go out. Head out to the first club Philthy McNasty, met the rest of the guys. Another shot of Yager, 4 glasses of Rye and Ginger, grabbed everyone and headed to Stages down the street. At stages, started with 2 shots of Liquid Cocaine each, then we went to dance. Had 3 more drinks of Fuzzy Navel, Sex on the Beach and a double rye and ginger. So by this time, i was Drunk. On the dance floor, some ass pours his drink on me and Chrissy in his drunken stupor and then he calls my friend a whore for some unknown reason and kicks her. She calls her Vietnamese bf, Thang, and he says he's coming down. We leave the club and stumble to Burger King to meet Thang's cousin Nguyen. At burger King this bunch of Caucasian guys starts making fun of Nguyen and he kept his cool for a bit. We see Thang's car so we step out. Nguyen tells Thang about the guys and Both of them and another guy Zhang, go in to BK and beats the shit out of the group of guys. I just stood there in absolute shock and I swear I started to sober up almost immediately. So I realised that the Asian ie Viets here are like scary.. haha. They're not tall but man can they beat the crap out of a big white guy. It was almost amusing until u see them(the white guys) with a bloody face. The 3 Viets have not a SCRATCH on them. After that point when i got in the car, I just passed out and I got carried home. The next i remember is waking up with the worst headache in the world.

But it was super fun to get out and let loose. I forsee many nights of drinking coming up soon. I swear I'm gg to kill my liver by the time I'm done school! It was an interesting night. There's another party tonight in Residence so thats going to be a BLAST!

Christmas is coming and I can't wait. Im a little sad though that I'm not going to be around all the people I love :( But I'm still gonna make the best out of it! Will update later.. i need to sleep this hangover off and prepare for tonight. OH! and I got 100 % on my human resources final exam... how damn great is that! Canadian schooling rocks!

Happy days

2006-12-13T18:12:00.000-08:00

OKAY I know i havent been very good at updating.. but that cos of this thing called EXAMS Miss Marisa! So.. Tomorrow is my last paper and school's basically done for me!!! I can't believe how quickly time passed. It feels like it was just yesterday, that I was crying my eyes out at the airport. A whole semester has whizzed by and its been great fun.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow.. The night will be filled with drinking, more drinking, more drinking,more drinking, dancing and more dancing. Sounds good to me! I haven't drank in like a week.. no.. I'm not an alcoholic. The holidays are here.. and more importantly Christmas is here! I can't wait to see my Uncle and his family who's coming up. I wish he'd fit all my friends in his luggage too :) The holidays are going to be FUN esp since I'm going to be in TORONTO! I can't wait to go clubbing there... *yay*.

So i'll talk about the weather now. Its friggin crazy.. thats one way to put it. It's gone up to 9 degrees now. That's bloody warm when it was -15 like a few days ago. I swear to God.. it makes u sick. The winter's not even here yet, and it going to be Christmas soon. It's kinda strange.. but I'd wish it start snowing already. Well, maybe I'll take that back.. or not.. I don't know.. it doesn't feel very festive, holiday without knee-deep snow i guess. Oh! and Amherstview(where I live) is so beautiful with all the lights from the park and all the houses! Our house looks great with all the lights and Mr. Penguin outside!

I'm in a great mood today.. so its a happy post! I can't wait to be shit-canned tomorrow!! *WOO-HOO*

Moments

2006-12-10T22:33:00.000-08:00

When I sit back and think about my life, It amazes me at all the different occurances, mistakes, tragedies, the good and the not so good times. I'm only 20 and there's so much that has happened. I know that I'm not as experienced as lots of people my age some younger. But I've had my share of shitty times.

It's a strange feeling to be at the beginning of the most important decade yet. The second decade of you life, i believe, is when u set your foundation for your dreams and goals. I think that one costly mistake in the next ten yrs could possibly ruin lots of things in the future. This is going to be the most eventful ten yrs too. There is a whole bunch of things that could happen in the next ten years, it's alomost too much to comprehend all at once. I'm personally excited, because I'm ready to work hard for the future and see what it awaits.

Stepping out of my comfort zone has not only been an eye-openner about a lot of things. It's somewhat amplified my feelings, emotions and thoughts. I seem a lot more calm and rational here. I think its just a mechanism in me that forces me to be like that. I can't afford to freak or lose control of my feelings here. Well at least I'm not soooo drama now. Still very reactive (chinchilla-like) but not so drama.

Spending the next 5 years here seems almost unreal to me. I'm starting to feel that my life might be here now. That might change at any point of course, but I think I want it to be here. The opportunities and the exposure I believe is far better than anything I'll get back home. But, home is home. No loyalties to the country, just the people in it and the FOOD. But, I guess i've wanted to leave for so long, and now I've got my chance.

Loooong day that ended well ;)

2006-12-07T20:57:00.000-08:00

It's funny how the weather changes so quickly here. You think its going to be sunny,and then in 2 hrs when you already out, freakin snow starts falling on your head. The first thing that runs through your head is "CRAP!!!!". But then i think to myself "That's ok.. im wearing jacket and boots.. that'll keep me warm"... NOT! So.. i think this is the part where i have to stop being lazy and carry my gloves and hat around.

So.. today was a killer day. With a math test to write, a communications test and a marketing presentation. Killed 3 birds with one stone. My math teacher is an interesting subject that i will elaborate on further some other day. But I screwed a qn up.. I think.. but whatever.

What really got my adrenline pumping all day, was the aniticipation to present for marketing. Our case was Mercedes Benz's SL series.. and it was fun. Marketing has never quite been an option till now.. It was a freakin circus in the class.. where the audience can disagree and bomb anything you're saying.. and as the Marketing team, you've got to defend yourselves. It was not easy.. but I LOVE my group. Everyone seemed to like it.. cos we were almost spot on.. So i was glad in general.

Well.. my day's ended with 2 gd shows, Who Killed the electric Car, which is a documentary on the whole GM electric car scam. I thought it was rather interesting. The second show was some stand up comedian, Bill Engvill. He's soooo funny. More importantly, it was time spent with great company, my fav Kingston couple, Dave and Jenny! And where Dave is.. there's a ton of drinks.

In all my day was good.. for once.

Music: Fergilicious- Fergie (duh...)

The weirdest day of my life.

2006-12-06T16:46:00.000-08:00

So today started of as a good day.. the weather was nice and warm at 3 degrees celcius, and the wind was going the same direction as me.. so i kinda got pushed to the bus stop. Took the bus into town.. met craig and got a ride to school.

Then everyone was basically nervous cos we were getting the final grade for our accounting.. and no one seemed to have a clue abt what it wld be.. so there was nervous energy around me all day. I did gd (95%). That made my day a little cos there's a lot going on right now. That happiness was short-lived.. cos I received disturbing news regarding the Braund. Things got cleared up eventually, after losing my appetite and having a headache frm thinking. Then, more news came in, which is currently making my stomach churn and making my head spin. The drama never ends in my life. Apart from all that, I have to deal with a math test, communications test, a marketing presentation and a severe case of homesickness. I cant believe writing this, is actually helping me feel better.

It's incredible how so many things can happen all at once and I'm still relatively sane. At this very moment.. I appreciate my strength from within.. which I never really thought i had. Being shipped overseas is both one of the crappiest and one of the best things that has happened to me. The saying is true "A crisis either builds your character or tears it down." I know that it's the former for me. I know I'm still not totally self dependent, because all you darlings.. Clare, ess, Farna, Shane, Moo, Dave... I still whine and seek advice.. But I think I've learnt to be a LOT stronger for myself, because not too long ago I realised.. the only 2 people I fully trust is God and myself. That's extremely hard to accept.. because you're almost forced to instantly grow up or you'll be eaten alive.

This is hard, so hard.

Music: Tell Me- P.Diddy feat Christina Aguileira

My virgin entry

2006-12-05T23:57:00.000-08:00

So.. this is my very first entry in any form of blogging. Thanks to a fellow fav friend, I'm finally suckered into this thing.

I'm already hating it.. but we'll see. It's exactly 3am now.. and I'm not asleep because i think i ate too much candy and drank too much of rum and coke.. and i had a nap earlier. I just came home a while ago frm watching a rented movie at a friend's place, called Beerfest. Yes, i'm disgusting now cos I drink beer, and i can actually tell a good beer frm a shitty one. The movie was all abt beer with a storyline of saving a beer recipe thrown into it, but i liked it quite a bit.

So today was the first day of heavy snowfall. There is about ankle deep snow all over the plc now. It's a pain in the butt to walk in the snow cos there is a variety of very annoying things that can happen
1. You can slip and fall
2.You can freeze ure foot off if you're not wearing proper footwear.
3.You can't walk very fast
4. You'll get snow half way up your jeans, and when u think ure nice and warm.. it starts melting.

The list can go on, but im too lazy to whine now. Well this snowfall marks the start of a 3 month long winter, which i have a feeling i wont like, unless I'm making a snowman, learning to ski or going tubarganing.

Besides that, school is good. It's the exam time now. School is ending soon. When that happens, I'll write more thoughts abt the people I've met so far.. some culture shock moments.. yea.. I'll just put the interesting stuff down.

Music: Home- Michael Buble (How appropriate)